people are going to ask me how it was when i get back. they will expect me to gush about the whole experience....about the thrill of living alone. of being abroad. they're wrong you know. i used to like the silence. now i need noise around me all the time. i used to sleep in the dark. now i don't remember the last time i slept with the curtains drawn open, without a light on somewhere. i could go without talking to someone for hours. msn is my lifeline now. i wasn't afraid to be alone before.